Hi there! Happy New Year!
It’s been a while since I have been in your inbox! There are so many reasons but you know, they are all just totally lame excuses, and I don’t like to give you lame-o excuses. But I’m back and refreshed, and wanted to share with you a story, AND I wanted to share with you my word for the year. It’s PRESENT – not as in the gift, but PRESENT – being in the moment. My other word is FUN. Because who doesn’t want to have more FUN in their life!? Just for this post though, we are going to talk about the word PRESENT.
One of Many Stories
I have been cursed since childhood with worry and stress. I learned this behavior as a young child watching and hearing my mom always complaining about never having enough. Money stressed her out. I mean, she and my dad did have 6 mouths to feed. When I wanted her to buy us popsicles, she reinforced the importance of making sure she and my dad could find the funds she needed to pay off debt they owed or pay the bills. She would always tell us how little money we had in the bank and that God only provides us what we need – no more and no less (hopefully). We were lucky to have 5o dollars in the bank account at the end of the month.
It was Christmas. There was white, fluffy snow on the ground and I am sure it was bitter cold as it always is in Minnesota. I remember looking outside our frosty living room window and seeing a car with a Christmas tree tied to the top of it. Suddenly, the car stopped in front of our house. I think I was about 13 at the time. I recognized the face. It was Mrs. Kochevar, the second grade teacher. Apparently, my little sister (who was in 2nd grade at the time) told the teacher that we were poor and never had a Christmas tree. Mrs. Kochavar being so sweet and kind, gifted us our first live tree. The funny thing is, we already had one! It wasn’t a real one, but we had a legit tree! The point is, the feelings of lack weren’t just felt by me.
I took on those same feelings about money as I grew into an adult and never realized how much it impacted the way I lived my life and made decisions. I clipped coupons and only bought things on sale. I never went on any vacations. Everything was so “expensive”. The funny part was, I wasn’t even poor!! My husband and I were making multiple six figure salaries, maxed out our 401K investments and maxed out our IRA allowances. However, I never wanted to spend any money for fear that I would never have enough or that it would disappear. I love my parents so much and I don’t blame them for anything. I am just sharing how our behaviors and habits can naturally carry on from one generation to another. I always had that same feeling that my mom transferred to me as a child, worry and fear of never having enough.
It’s been a long journey overcoming these old stories (thanks to hiring high level coaches and money mindset mentors) and I no longer let unexpected events or circumstances freak me out. Unless I am being chased by a bear, I rarely stress or worry. Don’t get me wrong. My old thought habits creep up on me, but now I am aware of them and I no longer let them affect me as I did in the past. I mean, I have so much, more than I ever imagined and I want to continue to be PRESENT because when I am PRESENT, I can more clearly see the blessings I have around me. I see the people who love me. I hear the giggles and laughter of the sweetest children. I feel an embrace and hold on an extra 10 seconds longer. I smell the delicious dinner my husband is cooking for me. I am loved and so lucky. I feel the cup overflowing with wealth in all aspects of my life. No worries. Only being in the present, having fun and knowing what matters right now.
What’s your word or words for 2018? I would love to hear from you!